what's stopping me

& I'm regressing

it's one thing to learn something

it's another to practice it.

I'm cheap, I could live with 99 cent mcdoubles

What I don't want

is destruction of our only rain forrests for grazing room and solitary control over most of the world's meat industry...

Even though capitqlism is a great system.. It's important to check them, like Truman.. Too big to fail...Bonk

Too big for your own damn good.

and I wish I could fully trust myself.. I feel I'm impeccable with my word except for porn.

Anything that I say I'm going to quit and can't scares me.. That's why I do lent, Ramadan etc.

I put myself and the world through rigorous tests and I find

It really is the principle of the matter

that is more important then anything and t's up to me to check my mistakes.

OK i'm getting out of control, I'll fast this weekend

Different writers have put things into perspective

like Lemety Snickets: the world seems to give you everything you need to know

and it's up to you to apply it with those that you encounter.

Just like before I go somewhere, there's this voice in my head that does the planning

Someone asked me what language do i think in & when I think, I don't think I usually use words

though when I plan, I do and the planning voice goes, I'll get a beer, something to eat and then another beer & that should be an ok buzz.

Or don't forget you left your gloves in your pocket or deoderant on the counter. If I can remember the things the trusty old voice of myself says.. I guess when working with two people you are responsible to say it aloud so everyone can be on the same page.

Even alone, I'll think of funny stuff

It gets even better when out of the blue, I'm often riding or doing something physical, when or while focued on my task I'll get the best idea I've ever heard & I try to remember it but hardly ever do and it's the laziness of jotting it down..

I liked my lil stylo pen a lot. Though can I get it in a thin screen, boost?

Because I don't have an devil voice on my other shoulder just evil forces trying to get me to forget and venture from the script...

& something else catches my attention, throws me off, wait what was I thinking..

Sometimes I can it back, though I'm saying what you in theory, ought to effect that, especially if you're doing things you're not happy with. Or more easily, just try not to think about it. Though the subconscious seems o have it's own karmatic effect..

I deserve the capability to be aware of the present moment. but in the present circumstances would have to accept from the lesser of the evils every day. Ali said it's maddening, it'll simply drive one crazy even trying it's not the way it should be and it's not going to remedy itself, that's what great thinkers are for.

& capitalism is that a better way should succeed but in a business sense it's about the execution of an idea.

There's also the question of starting capital.

There's also the factor of the powers that be

See we have gotten used to

The people already making the money will stifle anyone who's trying to impede on their Even if it means progress. Plus so many people make money on disasters that it's gotten to the point that only those that milk the system, individuals that are oppoortunists, skim what they can on our nations prosperity. The equivalent of liquidating the greatness in some senses.. The middle class to me, indicates that but everyone is most times an advocate for themselves.

& I went from aderoll to crank and the last time I tried it someone i cared about hooked it up & I couldnt stop moving my jaw for months

I swore I'd never do it again... These days its like ice, merely commonplace, like white gangs.

& pimping and every season, new hoes get caught and then controlled by the police, & can't get anythin without their help. Family don't like it, they're taking their shit.. In small towns and everyone sees it's sad, she shouldn't have gotten into drugs though.

& they don't go hand in hand

They do in war time & during periods of prohibition.

To me: I never wanted any part of it. Too smart for that: & when I missed it myself, this girl that hated my hs sweetheart said, get coke and girls will fuck you.

I was 19 at the time and thought about it.. Decided I don't want any girl that will fuck me for coke..

But I got her to sniff lines of my dick.. Shut up fag

& when I was in LA they were the worst of the lot

talking about glory..

I'm a fucking freak but when you got some chick behind the wall waiting for her service that's just base, lewd and in short never excited my attention.

capitalism has turned towards harvesting organs and some people are talking about whatever the fuck those rich people are supposedly drinking, kromium? I forget the name but it had an awful ring to it..

People we have to check them now.

Half the Israeli patients who died in the wave were fully vaccinated

Yoou took the test vaccine and it didn't pass the test

it wasn't good for the variants

so scratch that idea and move on to the next if science were real.. Nope

We're going to ignore the facts & get this: Insist that people who are unvaccinated are the reason for the variants. Pfizer who to me, are the career criminals of the medical industry straight insisting they are bigger then a countrys government and principles and most importantly fucking sense.

Yes

We made the emergency vaccine and you damn sure will drink it!

We have the capabilities to have had a thousand other projects in the works in case this happened and we could choose from the best option. Though there are opportunists who want a week long paid vacation to taking government funding to even stimulus checks.

Remember when we weren't allowed to touch our face? & now people are looking in each others windows to make sure they have their masks on at home or in their car... Worried about seem secret enemy. We were told that it stays on surfaces & that it can be transmited even by those that are asymptomatic.

We're told if everyone gets the vaccines then people could go out again and that was a lie.

The #s on the rise are controlled by the news networks. they want you to feel bad about leaving the house so they can starve out the small businesses.

They cornered the pet market in online sales that Amason doesn't already have. Lockdowns are in their interest.

Having people make you feel bad for being social and seeing others people faces... My friends, that is a requirement in a persons day to day happiness. The social bar in the sims and the environment.. You can't physically be happy just being at home. Even if it's the most beautiful cage in the world.. It's not freedom and that's not our way of life.